part of you

she is still a part of you no matter what you say
and i feel i can't compare
from your extensive history
to the color of her hair
and it's hard for me to be
who i want to be
because someone already occupied that space
that someone was never me
and i know you say it's not the case
that it's all so real and new
but you don't understand that
she's still part of you
and once was everything i now want to be.
so you should know how i feel
except i keep my lips sealed
solely for the fear that you will turn away
run back to her
a glutton for punishment
but you'd only be punishing me
for all those years of history
and a part of you i'll never be.


created Monday, November 24, 2008